so, lots of things have happened since last we spoke. . .

i have to say, its been freakin sweet bein me lately

luv you guys

yay for really fun girls that make darren blush

i get to take this girl named allison out to a movie. . . she actually likes me, and we are gonna have a wonderful time together. cuz if i know her as well as i think i do. . . we may hit things off really well

im happy. . . an actual happy, no fakin it. . . no lyin, im just in a good time of my life right now

its not that i hate, its more that i fear. . .

i fear that which i do not fully comprehend. and that is this.

there is a remedy, but i cant give it to myself. the only thing that will make things better is ^{this one thing}

what purpose does one have when there is nothing left to do?

(dont comment on this)

well i want you to notice
to notice when i'm not around
and i know that your eyes see straight through me
and speak to me without a sound

i want to hold you
protect you from all of the things I've already endured
I want to show you
Show you all the things that this life has in store for you
I'll always love you
the way that a father should love his daughter

when i walked out this morning
i cried as i walked to the door
i cried about how long i'd be away for
i cried about leaving you all alone

sweet zoe jane

so i wanted to say this
cuz i wouldn't know where to begin
to explain to you what i have been through
to explain where your daddy has been 


sweet zoe jane

screw this, i aint doing it anymore. i have said it once, and i am gonna reiterate my stupid ass self. i try and help, and i cant help if i dont know whats going on. and everything i said is coming true, and you know it.

stop, look around. its how i said it was going to be. you lied to me, even though i expected it. im worried, and i am gonna stay worried because there will be no way around this. you will never understand, its impossible for you. some are not meant to give up, while some have to lose everything before they can have something good.

so, to repeat myself AGAIN. . . fuck this shit, i dont care anymore